Hello everyone:
I am a bipolar, dabetic, alcoholic and one of them many things that AA has taught me is to let go and let God and I do that on a daily basis.
On April 4, 1989 I was diagnosed as being bipolar and that was after living in a self imposed hell for ten years. I self medicated with alcohol to drown out the pain of what was going on in my head. My life was out of control from the time I was eighteen till the time I was twenty-eight.
During those years, I incurred major credit card debts from sharging many things including two horses and other material things that didnt make me happy. I thought that they would but found out that they were jsut temporary fixes. In the spring of 1982, I met a Ray. I was working at Ford county Feed lot. I was the only female on the lot part of the lot. I was drinking at the local bar that was a quarter mile out of the town because the town was a dry town. I was there with my friend Kim and we were playing pool when Ray walkled in and over to Kim. On my part, I thought it was love at first sight so I went to bed with him that night and was drunk off my ass. Ray was home on emergency leave from the Army. He was stationed in Fort Wainright, Alaska in the com center.
A few months later, I found out that I was pregnant and in the end in order to keep the baby I ended up fkying up to Alaska to marry him. He was so drunk when we were getting married that he put the ring on the wrong finger of the wrong hand. I didnt drink while I was pregnangt or after I had the my son.
I was in labor 36 hours and only dialated 4cm. I ended up having an emergence c-section. I was in ICU for two days before I got to see my 9lb 2oz blond haired 27 inch long baby boy.
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